A Friendly Guide to The Universe. Use it well.
Wake up.
You will learn that this has been your first mistake. The second one, is getting out of bed and getting dressed. Your hygiene practices should follow, if you have any. This will be your routine for the morning each day. You will notice as you become accustomed to your routine, it will run flawlessly. A dance, if you will.
Leave your home, house, shelter, flat, apartment, cave. This is where the real world sets in. The wonder, the love, the life, the hate, the sorrow and sadness and all that is, was, could be but isn’t and won’t ever, happens and waits for you.
On your way to wherever you choose to go, you will meet others, who are also passing you on their way to some place that means nothing to you and perhaps some of them as well. These creatures, these other people, will and won’t have an impact on your life. You’ll like some. You will hate others and feel indifferent about many.
What you must remember and never forget is that each emotion, thought, quiver you feel, they feel it too. They can hate you. They can like you. They can and may feel nothing for you. There is a balance and equal and opposite reaction to everything.
You will find yourself in situations you do not understand and have no solution for. Life is not like television. You will not have a Hollywood Ending. There will be pain. You will lose people you care for. The people you care for may never return it. There will be a time where you must decide on the person you will be.
You can be the Nice One.
The one who never says an unkind word or thought against anyone. You won’t hurt others for pleasure or because you want someone to feel it, because dammit, why can’t they?
You will care about those in your life and your enemies. Enemies, in your opinion are confused friends. They don’t know better and need to be shown, loved and told they can be better. That they are better.
You can also choose to be the One Who Hates.
You want the world at its knees because you are owed. Friends? You never had the time or anyone who understood you enough to be that close. People can be only trusted to let you down. To hurt you. To destroy you. You must hurt, kill, betray and destroy first. Life is pain and you are the bane of everyone’s existence.
Deep down you want to be punished, to have someone but you’ll never allow for it. You’re bad to the bone. To the core. You deserve everything that comes your way and they do too. Hatred is power and you are her wielder.
You can choose to be neither of these options. You can be the who is scared to be anything. Who doesn’t say the words or the thoughts or the feelings, but you feel them. You wouldn’t act out against another, but you long for the courage. You’d never quite be that shoulder for others to lean on, but as you stand in the background you will feel it. Fear can be your mistress and you’ll never let her go and she you.
You don’t have to be any of these. The choice is yours but remember. You will make a choice and there will be consequences. You cannot escape them no matter how much you duck, run, dodge and beg. You will be found and have to deal. You will either manage or fail in someone’s view and you will never quite win. You can cope and move on.
Not everyday will be eventful. You will not remember every aspect or detail of what you have done. There will be days where you remember everything. It may keep you awake at night. It will play over in your mind like a video on a loop. You will feel the pain, the shame and embarrassment. You will not want to leave your home or bed or sleep.
You must.
Push away the sorrow and the shame. Carry on. Move on. It will be hard. It’ll be akin to walking against the rushing waters of a tsunami. You can survive. You must try.
The final secret and advice this guide will give you is stolen. The words and the thought and sentence is not our own but we abide because it is true. The point of living, the point of this world and everything The Universe will throw at you on purpose. The hardest thing you’ll ever have to do in this life, this world is to live.
So live,
The Coward